that faith thing

im trying to get back into the mood of studying.
oh well, amidst all my hair pulling concerns, its a bit hard to concentrate sometimes ):
hopefully my studying will help eradicate some hair pulling concerns.
sometimes i wish i was out working already. oh wells.
first time in my life i ever thought about such... [stuff]
clearly, 2009 is going to be tough. poor men have their problems
well, so do rich men. and worse, those in the middle.

been drifting quite a bit recently, must really really remember.. not in my own strength, but His.
Been losing sight of that these couple of weeks, clearly the reason for my downswing in moods.
hopefully it'll change soon. faith, such an elusive concept (mostly cos u can't see or feel it)
but faith, something i have had for the past many months... still have it although sometimes it slips into oblivion. sometimes, i just feel like shutting myself in my wardrobe and staring at myself in the mirror, hoping to see through the lively, joyful somewhat carefree exterior.
i kinda think im feeling sad inside and a bit frustrated but somewhere inside me... i see (or feel) a glimmer of hope. must be that faith thing which is so elusive, but which sometimes comes out of the darkness and makes me smile.
thanks be to god. (: please, help me get out the rest of my faith from the dusty moth ball areas in my heart. all my self thought out fantasies and dreams to settle my own problems...
clearly, useless. if i have the big guy above on my side, all my problems will naturally be solved.

see, im smiling again, must be that faith thing God gave me (:


ilovemydaddyandmummyalot (: haha so random i know. but i do.